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Summary

The narrator reflects on her conflicted feelings after receiving praise at her party office, feeling a thorn of guilt about her husband Shekhar’s neglect. She recalls a Christian myth about a devil cursed to be freed only when all earthly beings pray for him, but his efforts to turn people against God only push them further away, leaving him helpless. She feels a similar curse shadows her. She decides to reveal her past to explain recent events. Born into a middle-class family as an only child, she was raised by her independent, intellectual father, who hosted political debates at home. She became politically active, joining a party despite her father’s warnings to prioritize studies and avoid narrow-mindedness. In 1945, during the Indian independence movement, she clashed with a speaker who dismissed women’s political understanding, fueling her resolve to prove herself. She married Shekhar, a member of an opposing party, after they agreed to respect each other’s political commitments. Their marriage thrived on mutual respect, with separate political lives. During the first post-independence elections, her party nominated her, but she declined, supporting Ajit Mitra instead. Shekhar ran for the opposing party, leading to tension. She gave a fierce speech against him, earning praise and deepening her party involvement. As the election neared, financial strain hit her party. She donated her jewelry, given by her father, to the party. She grew increasingly distant from Shekhar, ignoring his neglect. Three days before the election, she returned home to find him busy; his indifference stung, and she retreated to her room, exhausted and hurt.