नन्दकिशोर आचार्य की कविताएं
By नन्दकिशौर भरावार्य
Summary
The text is a poetic and philosophical reflection on existence, love, mortality, and the nature of creation. It begins with a contemplation of the universe as a product of imagination, where the speaker declares they will not die until the other does, and the other is repeatedly born within them to achieve immortality through death. The speaker urges not to be bored but to love and adorn them, as they adorn their own love, dying each time to live again. Time is described as a blooming emptiness, neither memory nor expectation, but a ruin that deepens its emptiness through blooming. A waterfall within the speaker's chest is presented as the very reason for dying. The text then shifts to water speaking in the desert of silence, where a sprout emerges from emptiness. It denies that the infinite has a form or that there is a golden fortress, instead describing a prayer born from the earth's soul, blooming like a thousand-petaled yellow lotus, offered to the infinite in open palms. The earth itself is a prayer, but now the prayer is lost in its own indifference, having turned into a stony sob, yet this is its rhythm, giving form to the infinite. Finally, the soul seeks a home in memory of liberation, hoping to leave it and become free, but the home remains forever a ruin in that memory.
Conclusion
The poem's cyclical structure of death and rebirth suggests that human existence is an endless loop of creation and dissolution, where the self is both the creator and the creation. The imagery of the "sunāpan" (emptiness) blooming in time implies that meaning emerges not from permanence but from the acceptance of transience. The speaker's declaration that they will not die until the other dies underscores a profound interdependence, where love becomes the force that sustains this cycle. Ultimately, the text implies that liberation is not found by escaping this cycle but by embracing it fully—by loving and shaping one's reality even within the ruins of memory. The outcome is a vision of existence as a continuous act of becoming, where the self is both the question and the answer, forever seeking a home that remains a ruin.